I can tell you exactly what happened. I reached a point where I was tired. I was tired of being depressed, I was tired of being angry, I was tired of being frustrated, I was tired of feeling cheated, I was tired of feeling like a victim, I was tired of everything seeming so complicated and just living a life of pain.
And, I sat there and I realized that perhaps I had it wrong. What if life doesn’t have to be as complicated as I thought it was – What if I was making everything out to be harder than what it has to be. I grew up in the church I read my Bible cover to cover multiple times, I can quote scripture. Matter of fact I’m known for going around and telling people just how great God is and how much God loves them,
But you know something it hit me. I didn’t believe it for myself – I didn’t believe that God loved me. And so I had a powwow with God and I asked God to show me what love is. Because my Bible says that God is love so if I don’t know what love is then I don’t know who God is.
You know maybe you’re not spiritual, maybe you’re not religious, but I recognize that I am a spirit, and this is my journey. And you know something, if God needs me to allow my journey to help somebody else, then I want you to go ahead and come in join the ride. I am worker harder to get better.
Whitney Houston used to sing a song saying the greatest love of all is learning to love yourself. And I remember sitting in the back seat of my parents car singing it to the top of my lungs, but it finally hit me… Those words are so true, You got to learn to love yourself. When you learn to love yourself, you learn who God is, and then you’re able to love someone else.
I truly believe that the path doesn’t have to be as hard as we make it out to be.
I believe that if you learn to love you, you learn to love God, you learn who God is, and you learn to love others – life will get easier. I’ve been on this journey for several years and I can tell you that life has gotten easier.
Do I cry? – Yes
Do I still have hang ups and bang ups? – Yes
But I bounce back, I come back, my relationships have gotten richer, my friendships are stronger.
I don’t know if this will help someone, but I pray it does. And so if me opening up my journey and allowing people to have a look in touches your soul and allows you to get into a better place then you know what… I am open to being vulnerable.
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